Currently Listening Mezmerize By System of a Down Badass CD fo sho nigga! see related

Well Hello there ....ppl...yea iam just chillin its monday hm back to FUCKing SOuth gad ..how much fun not...but yea iam just sitting here chillin with Jordan....listing to the new System of the Down Cd damn its amazing..soo yea my weekend was pretty cool EMily is 16 Happy Birthday again babe i got to see her saturday..kinda little conflict with friands and shit..and i also got to see her...today it was pretty badass..umm friday...hmm well lets just say i dont wanna talk about it....b/c i fucking hate drama and shit and ia through with the whole Phillp and Chris thing fuck that they won..i dont care i honestly dont....its w/e its not worth me going to Jv over or anything like that...soo yea for once in my life imma swallow my pride and say fuck it they won i dont give a fuck its w/e man life is to short to fight all the time and shit serously...but yea.. ....i think i might be going to Dream World ..this friday to watch my homeboys band play speaking of bands i might be joing LAst Night Awake....hmm yea  this is what me and josh talked about plus i kinda talked about it with Greg but yea check this line up...well we kinda need a keyboard tho if u play keyboard hit me up fo reals...John i think u should play with us bro fo reals...

Greg-Bass- Josh-lead/rythem guitar- Hunter-lead/rythem guitar-Blake-Drums-Steven-scream/sing with Hunter and shit...i think it would pretty badass yea know and who ever can write the lyrics ....josh said they want it like to be like Death Cab For Cutie , or like Interpol...somethin in that area ..hardcore/indie i think it sounds pretty intersting and badass..i need to be bac in a band fo reals tho..

But yea anyways....Ver&leann-ann lol yall are great love yea girls ....leann-ann u should answer your phone more often douch fo reals..lol..but yea love yalll

well i got probation baseically right after school tommor damn i got a U.A to ..not to worry about it tho cuzz i dont do drugs but i just hate pissing in front of a fucking italina u know but yea...then sherry and me are gonna talk to him about getting my 8 hours of commity service done and getting me homeschooled and withdrawn ..and shit ...since my social anxity is like killing me and shit ..yea it sucks but i think iam done heres yall up date for yall

Paula -babe your awsome we need to hang out for reals soon....u put me in your entry soo iam putting u in mine hehe love yea...aww iam glade u wanna hug me hehe..

EMily -babe i love u to death and u know i always will mwahh...later babe...

call me soon.....

sincerly,steven robert zander

p.s hott hott heat???

Layout-Credit to Emily

Currently Listening Dear Diary, My Teen Angst Has a Bodycount By From First to Last love the whole Cd!! see related

Sooo yea last night was BADASS i gott soo throwned iam still gone ..like fo reals like 20 shots and like 6 beers/smirnoff ...omfg it was pretty badass tho i got to hang out with kuldune ,Baby,Becka,My Older Bro Paul ,Jordan ,Kenny,Nick,Dani,Blake,COCo fo sho lol, lindy and just a shit load more man it was badasss...my brother got soo throwend i had to help and shit...and me and kenny are pretty cool now and shit...soo i hope that last it seems like it will and i apoligize ken for hitting u in the face fo reals....but yea it was pretty ass...love all iam out.....man i just want out of south fo reals i wanna be home school soo bad and my probation is kinda holding me bac but iamma find a way around all that shit...but yea...iam done later yall

sincerly,steven robert zander

Happy Early Birthday ...EMily Michelle Carter...

p.s i love yea all....thxs for all the comments i appricate them fo reals...!

Currently Listening Use Your Fingers By The Bloodhound Gang love the whole Cd!! see related

SoooOO yea ....i knew this was gonna happend this is why i want the fuck out of south.....

I GOT JUMPED....JUST WAIT MOTHER FUCKERS JUST WAIT...THINK IAM PLAYING CUZZ IAM NOT AND I DONT GIVE A FUCK....YALL FUCKED WITH THE WRONG MOTHER FUCKER SEROSULY....

PHILLP YOUR MINE MOTHER FUCKER ...JUST WAIT...

IAM TOO MOTHER FUCKING KNOWN IN THIS GOD DAMN CITY...

WERE THE FUCK IS JORDAN WHE U NEED HIM?

I SWEAR ....I WELL GET MY REVENGE...HAVEING ALL THESES MOTHER FUCKERS LIKE PHILLP...TUCKER CHRIS...AND BLACK PPL JUST WAIT....

SINCERLY,STEVEN ROBERT ZANDER

P.S JUST WAIT FUCKERS...JUST WAIT

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ok i just hit kenneith adam mendoza in the face once agian...thxs wayne i appricate eveything bro and tommor me jeremy wayne jordan and some other niggas are gonna pay chris and all them a visit ....soo yea ...iam fucking ready

dani sry it had to be like this babe...i really didnt want it to be.....):

Currently Listening Lifted or The Story Is in the Soil, Keep Your Ear to the Ground By Bright Eyes Sad SAd Deppessed..): see related

SOOoo yea..things are just getting worse...and shit i mean all i fucking want is to be out of SOuth Grand Prairie...i mean how hard can that be serosuly...all ive ever wanted was a family who cared for me...i mean my dad lives in New York and my mother could care less what happend to me...i mean ive lost a brother ...ive been around drugs almost ever day of my life....ive seen ppl overdose right in front of me ive been in a shooting...ive been in a car wreck...i have social anxity now...from what?? nobody really knows some ppl say from stress and depression others say from...i mean its just crazy i smoked pot for like 2-3 months 7th grade ive done a few pills (Hydrocondoes /seraquil/soma/ i mean and ive drank thats about it..nuthing big at all and my life just has to be soo hard and confusing...i mean iam sitting here trying to help feed like 6 kids and shit i mean its just soo hard in my life fo reals i miss my brother and my older brother and eveybody..and shit i am about to brake down SGPH is brakeing me down piece bye piece i mean i have a strong heart and mind but u can only take soo much of the hate in this world before u attempt sucide or what not i mean ..u seee all these kids slitting there wrist b/c there parents dont give a fuck what is our world comeing to...is our society just full of rap/stealing/huslers/drugs/sex/violence/liers/theives/un loyal ppl i mean iam not saying iam perfect or anything but....we need to make a change or actually i need a change...i dont wanna be a fuck up i dont wanna end up like most ppl around me and shit trying to get that last taste of coke or ice or herioen or w/e i mean thats just ..terrible..when u just leave your kid i quote "YOUR" kid out to take care of him self like i was taught ive been on the streets and shit for along time...ive gotten jumped ...and ive had to hussle ppl and steal to make offf its not a good like it really isnt and iam just woundering ..when will some catch me...and hold me and tell me "EVEYTHING" will be ok...that day will be the day fo reals...thats all eveybody wants in this world if for someone to love them and take care of them and treat them right with the respect they deserve and what not...but yea i guess thats all imma say for now..and shit..yea...

how many out there have a "Broken Home" how many out there are on there own and takeing care of themselfs and probely more..how many out there have been raped or abused bye there fucking parents..how many out there hussle just to get bye and eat ...how many out there have a mother who dosnt give a fuck ...how many out there dont have a father in there life...how many out there ...see drugs eveyday in there life....how many out there have to...deal with proverity...??

YOU tell me....cuzz i think we should come togather...

us "Broken HOme Kids"

sincerly,steven robert zander

p.s love yea all ...nighty night

Currently Listening Never Mind The Bollocks/Spunk By The Sex Pistols Badass CD fo sho nigga! see related

SooOO yea... ive had a pretty cool/weird weekend i mean i went to the homecomeing thingy friday saw a shit load of ppl there i havent seen in along time..hung out with Jordan and shit..almost supposly got jumped bye some stupid ...fucks....but...it was pretty cool omfg i saw NAtilie Smith i havent seen that girl in soo fucking long.....it was pretty cool...i kinda wanted to hang out with cristen more but she was too busy....oo and yea...Caty gots a new dick in her mouth if anybody wants to know...Austin ha give me a fucknig brake..good luck with that.....anyways i dont really care i got my ppl ..who care for me and she gots her ppl so its w.e .

Damn i miss EMily i havent seen that girl in along time man..like fo reals its her birthday from a week from now ...shes gonna be sixteen aww my little emily is growing up ...haaha ..just playing babe but yea..cant wait to see her ....

Hmm Ash ..i dont know what your comment mean kinda a little confused bye it actually but hey whatever..i just really dont want your little group to all be mad at me but hey if yall are then its w/e ..Brianna can go fuck herself i dont care...and caty can go have fun with Austin it dosnt bother me...it really dosnt but i just hope were still cool and shit yea know?

Anyways i went to the show last night saw Greg ,Hunter,Josh,Blake play ( Last Night Awake) it was pretty badass...i hung out with miranda ..blake jordan mila ..erica normen kasey..sandy , ricky , and some other ppl it was pretty tho...wel at least i had fun...then laster on that night i saw my Veronica...went to go chill with her....then my crazy ass drunk throwed brother came bye and kuldune and peter and baby arron ..and tyler arnold..and konkle...and phillp ,and tamra and ryan miller and it was just like old times idk it was weird like the group was bac togather and shit yea know....

But yea...i miss my bro and the old group man i really doo i mean its just ..not the same...i love them kids...i love the old days in Gp bac when i use to love this place yea know....i mean i love Jordan and EMily and all them and shit.....but i mean i just wanna combin..the two yea know ..but yea i guess iam done now love yea alll

sincerly,steven robert zander

p.s HAppy Happy Days...